One of Ours
Book I: On Lovely Creek
Chapter IV
The time was approaching for Claude to go back to the struggling
denominational college on the outskirts of the state capital, where he had
already spent two dreary and unprofitable winters.
"Mother," he said one morning when he had an opportunity to speak to her
alone, "I wish you would let me quit the Temple, and go to the State
University."
She looked up from the mass of dough she was kneading.
"But why, Claude?"
"Well, I could learn more, for one thing. The professors at the Temple aren't
much good. Most of them are just preachers who couldn't make a living at
preaching."
The look of pain that always disarmed Claude came instantly into his mother's
face. "Son, don't say such things. I can't believe but teachers are more
interested in their students when they are concerned for their spiritual
development, as well as the mental. Brother Weldon said many of the professors
at the State University are not Christian men; they even boast of it, in some
cases."
"Oh, I guess most of them are good men, all right; at any rate they know
their subjects. These little pin-headed preachers like Weldon do a lot of harm,
running about the country talking. He's sent around to pull in students for his
own school. If he didn't get them he'd lose his job. I wish he'd never got me.
Most of the fellows who flunk out at the State come to us, just as he did."
"But how can there be any serious study where they give so much time to
athletics and frivolity? They pay their football coach a larger salary than
their President. And those fraternity houses are places where boys learn all
sorts of evil. I've heard that dreadful things go on in them sometimes. Besides,
it would take more money, and you couldn't live as cheaply as you do at the
Chapins'."
Claude made no reply. He stood before her frowning and pulling at a calloused
spot on the inside of his palm. Mrs. Wheeler looked at him wistfully. "I'm sure
you must be able to study better in a quiet, serious atmosphere," she said.
He sighed and turned away. If his mother had been the least bit unctuous,
like Brother Weldon, he could have told her many enlightening facts. But she was
so trusting and childlike, so faithful by nature and so ignorant of life as he
knew it, that it was hopeless to argue with her. He could shock her and make her
fear the world even more than she did, but he could never make her understand.
His mother was old-fashioned. She thought dancing and card-playing dangerous
pastimes—only rough people did such things when she was a girl in Vermont—and
"worldliness" only another word for wickedness. According to her conception of
education, one should learn, not think; and above all, one must not enquire. The
history of the human race, as it lay behind one, was already explained; and so
was its destiny, which lay before. The mind should remain obediently within the
theological concept of history.
Nat Wheeler didn't care where his son went to school, but he, too, took it
for granted that the religious institution was cheaper than the State
University; and that because the students there looked shabbier they were less
likely to become too knowing, and to be offensively intelligent at home.
However, he referred the matter to Bayliss one day when he was in town.
"Claude's got some notion he wants to go to the State University this
winter."
Bayliss at once assumed that wise, better-be-prepared-for-the-worst
expression which had made him seem shrewd and seasoned from boyhood. "I don't
see any point in changing unless he's got good reasons."
"Well, he thinks that bunch of parsons at the Temple don't make first-rate
teachers."
"I expect they can teach Claude quite a bit yet. If he gets in with that fast
football crowd at the State, there'll be no holding him." For some reason
Bayliss detested football. "This athletic business is a good deal over-done. If
Claude wants exercise, he might put in the fall wheat."
That night Mr. Wheeler brought the subject up at supper, questioned Claude,
and tried to get at the cause of his discontent. His manner was jocular, as
usual, and Claude hated any public discussion of his personal affairs. He was
afraid of his father's humour when it got too near him.
Claude might have enjoyed the large and somewhat gross cartoons with which
Mr. Wheeler enlivened daily life, had they been of any other authorship. But he
unreasonably wanted his father to be the most dignified, as he was certainly the
handsomest and most intelligent, man in the community. Moreover, Claude couldn't
bear ridicule very well. He squirmed before he was hit; saw it coming, invited
it. Mr. Wheeler had observed this trait in him when he was a little chap, called
it false pride, and often purposely outraged his feelings to harden him, as he
had hardened Claude's mother, who was afraid of everything but schoolbooks and
prayer-meetings when he first married her. She was still more or less
bewildered, but she had long ago got over any fear of him and any dread of
living with him. She accepted everything about her husband as part of his rugged
masculinity, and of that she was proud, in her quiet way.
Claude had never quite forgiven his father for some of his practical jokes.
One warm spring day, when he was a boisterous little boy of five, playing in and
out of the house, he heard his mother entreating Mr. Wheeler to go down to the
orchard and pick the cherries from a tree that hung loaded. Claude remembered
that she persisted rather complainingly, saying that the cherries were too high
for her to reach, and that even if she had a ladder it would hurt her back. Mr.
Wheeler was always annoyed if his wife referred to any physical weakness,
especially if she complained about her back. He got up and went out. After a
while he returned. "All right now, Evangeline," he called cheerily as he passed
through the kitchen. "Cherries won't give you any trouble. You and Claude can
run along and pick 'em as easy as can be."
Mrs. Wheeler trustfully put on her sunbonnet, gave Claude a little pail and
took a big one herself, and they went down the pasture hill to the orchard,
fenced in on the low land by the creek. The ground had been ploughed that spring
to make it hold moisture, and Claude was running happily along in one of the
furrows, when he looked up and beheld a sight he could never forget. The
beautiful, round-topped cherry tree, full of green leaves and red fruit,—his
father had sawed it through! It lay on the ground beside its bleeding stump.
With one scream Claude became a little demon. He threw away his tin pail, jumped
about howling and kicking the loose earth with his copper-toed shoes, until his
mother was much more concerned for him than for the tree.
"Son, son," she cried, "it's your father's tree. He has a perfect right to
cut it down if he wants to. He's often said the trees were too thick in here.
Maybe it will be better for the others."
"'Tain't so! He's a damn fool, damn fool!" Claude bellowed, still hopping and
kicking, almost choking with rage and hate.
His mother dropped on her knees beside him. "Claude, stop! I'd rather have
the whole orchard cut down than hear you say such things."
After she got him quieted they picked the cherries and went back to the
house. Claude had promised her that he would say nothing, but his father must
have noticed the little boy's angry eyes fixed upon him all through dinner, and
his expression of scorn. Even then his flexible lips were only too well adapted
to hold the picture of that feeling. For days afterward Claude went down to the
orchard and watched the tree grow sicker, wilt and wither away. God would surely
punish a man who could do that, he thought.
A violent temper and physical restlessness were the most conspicuous things
about Claude when he was a little boy. Ralph was docile, and had a precocious
sagacity for keeping out of trouble. Quiet in manner, he was fertile in devising
mischief, and easily persuaded his older brother, who was always looking for
something to do, to execute his plans. It was usually Claude who was caught
red-handed. Sitting mild and contemplative on his quilt on the floor, Ralph
would whisper to Claude that it might be amusing to climb up and take the clock
from the shelf, or to operate the sewing-machine. When they were older, and
played out of doors, he had only to insinuate that Claude was afraid, to make
him try a frosted axe with his tongue, or jump from the shed roof.
The usual hardships of country boyhood were not enough for Claude; he imposed
physical tests and penances upon himself. Whenever he burned his finger, he
followed Mahailey's advice and held his hand close to the stove to "draw out the
fire." One year he went to school all winter in his jacket, to make himself
tough. His mother would button him up in his overcoat and put his dinner-pail in
his hand and start him off. As soon as he got out of sight of the house, he
pulled off his coat, rolled it under his arm, and scudded along the edge of the
frozen fields, arriving at the frame schoolhouse panting and shivering, but very
well pleased with himself.