CHAPTER IV
THE GOLDEN HEART
The day after Dorothy's first meeting with Manners at Overhaddon
she was restless and nervous, and about the hour of three in the
afternoon she mounted Dolcy and rode toward Bakewell. That
direction, I was sure, she took for the purpose of misleading us at
the Hall, and I felt confident she would, when once out of sight,
head her mare straight for Overhaddon. Within an hour Dorothy was
home again, and very ill-tempered.
The next day she rode out in the morning. I asked her if I
should ride with her, and the emphatic "No" with which she answered
me left no room for doubt in my mind concerning her desire for my
company or her destination. Again she returned within an hour and
hurried to her apartments. Shortly afterward Madge asked me what
Dorothy was weeping about; and although in my own mind I was
confident of the cause of Dorothy's tears, I, of course, did not
give Madge a hint of my suspicion. Yet I then knew, quite as well
as I now know, that John, notwithstanding the important business
which he said would bring him to Overhaddon every day, had forced
himself to remain at home, and Dorothy, in consequence, suffered
from anger and wounded pride. She had twice ridden to Overhaddon to
meet him. She had done for his sake that which she knew she should
have left undone, and he had
refused the offering. A smarting conscience, an aching heart, and a
breast full of anger were Dorothy's rewards for her evil doing. The
day after her second futile trip to Overhaddon, I, to test her,
spoke of John. She turned upon me with the black look of a fury,
and hurled her words at me.
"Never again speak his despised name in my hearing. Curse him
and his whole race."
"Now what has he been doing?" I asked.
"I tell you, I will not speak of him, nor will I listen to you,"
and she dashed away from me like a fiery whirlwind.
Four or five days later the girl rode out again upon Dolcy. She
was away from home for four long hours, and when she returned she
was so gentle, sweet, and happy that she was willing to kiss every
one in the household from Welch, the butcher, to Sir George. She
was radiant. She clung to Madge and to me, and sang and romped
through the house like Dorothy of old.
Madge said, "I am so glad you are feeling better, Dorothy."
Then, speaking to me: "She has been ill for several days. She could
not sleep."
Dorothy looked quickly over to me, gave a little shrug to her
shoulders, bent forward her face, which was red with blushing, and
kissed Madge lingeringly upon the lips.
The events of Dorothy's trip I soon learned from her.
The little scene between Dorothy, Madge, and myself, after
Dorothy's joyful return, occurred a week before the momentous
conversation between Sir George and me concerning my union with his
house. Ten days after Sir George had offered me his daughter and
his lands, he brought up the subject again. He and I were walking
on the ridge of Bowling Green Hill.
"I am glad you are making such fair progress with Doll," said Sir George. "Have you yet
spoken to her upon the subject?"
I was surprised to hear that I had made any progress. In fact, I
did not know that I had taken a single step. I was curious to learn
in what the progress consisted, so I said:—
"I have not spoken to Dorothy yet concerning the marriage, and I
fear that I have made no progress at all. She certainly is friendly
enough to me, but—"
"I should say that the gift from you she exhibited would
indicate considerable progress," said Sir George, casting an
expressive glance toward me.
"What gift?" I stupidly inquired.
"The golden heart, you rascal. She said you told her it had
belonged to your mother."
"Holy Mother of Truth!" thought I, "pray give your especial care
to my cousin Dorothy. She needs it."
Sir George thrust at my side with his thumb and
continued:—
"Don't deny it, Malcolm. Damme, you are as shy as a boy in this
matter. But perhaps you know better than I how to go at her. I was
thinking only the other day that your course was probably the right
one. Doll, I suspect, has a dash of her old father's temper, and
she may prove a little troublesome unless we let her think she is
having her own way. Oh, there is nothing like knowing how to handle
them, Malcolm. Just let them think they are having their own way
and—and save trouble. Doll may have more of her father in her
than I suspect, and perhaps it is well for us to move slowly. You
will be able to judge, but you must not move too slowly. If in the
end she should prove stubborn, we will break her will or break her
neck. I would rather have a daughter in Bakewell churchyard than a
wilful, stubborn, disobedient huzzy in Haddon Hall."
Sir George had been drinking,
and my slip concerning the gift passed unnoticed by him.
"I am sure you well know how to proceed in this matter, but
don't be too cautious, Malcolm; the best woman living loves to be
stormed."
"Trust me," I answered, "I shall speak—" and my words
unconsciously sank away to thought, as thought often, and
inconveniently at times, grows into words.
"Dorothy, Dorothy," said the thoughts again and again, "where
came you by the golden heart?" and "where learned you so
villanously to lie?"
"From love," was the response, whispered by the sighing winds.
"From love, that makes men and women like unto gods and teaches
them the tricks of devils." "From love," murmured the dry rustling
leaves and the rugged trees. "From love," sighed the fleecy clouds
as they floated in the sweet restful azure of the vaulted sky.
"From love," cried the mighty sun as he poured his light and heat
upon the eager world to give it life. I would not give a fig for a
woman, however, who would not lie herself black in the face for the
sake of her lover, and I am glad that it is a virtue few women
lack. One who would scorn to lie under all other circumstances
would—but you understand. I suppose that Dorothy had never
before uttered a real lie. She hated all that was evil and loved
all that was good till love came a-teaching.
I quickly invented an excuse to leave Sir George, and returned
to the Hall to seek Dorothy. I found her and asked her to accompany
me for a few minutes that I might speak with her privately. We went
out upon the terrace and I at once began:—
"You should tell me when I present you gifts that I may not
cause trouble by my ignorance nor show surprise when I suddenly
learn what I have done. You see when a man gives a lady a gift and
he does not know it, he is apt to—"
"Holy Virgin!" exclaimed
Dorothy, pale with fear and consternation. "Did you—"
"No, I did not betray you, but I came perilously near it."
"I—I wanted to tell you about it. I tried several times to
do so—I did so long to tell somebody, but I could not bring
myself to speak. I was full of shame, yet I was proud and happy,
for all that happened was good and pure and sacred. You are not a
woman; you cannot know—"
"But I do know. I know that you saw Manners the other day, and
that he gave you a golden heart."
"How did you know? Did any one—"
"Tell me? No. I knew it when you returned after five hours'
absence, looking radiant as the sun."
"Oh!" the girl exclaimed, with a startled movement.
"I also knew," I continued, "that at other times when you rode
out upon Dolcy you had not seen him."
"How did you know?" she asked, with quick-coming breath.
"By your ill-humor," I answered.
"I knew it was so. I felt that everybody knew all that I had
been doing. I could almost see father and Madge and you—even
the servants—reading the wickedness written upon my heart. I
knew that I could hide it from nobody." Tears were very near the
girl's eyes.
"We cannot help thinking that our guilty consciences, through
which we see so plainly our own evil, are transparent to all the
world. In that fact lies an evil-doer's greatest danger," said I,
preacher fashion; "but you need have no fear. What you have done I
believe is suspected by no one save me."
A deep sigh of relief rose from the girl's heaving breast.
"Well," she began, "I will tell you all about it, and I am only
too glad to do so. It is heavy, Malcolm, heavy on my conscience. But I would not be rid of it
for all the kingdoms of the earth."
"A moment since you told me that your conduct was good and pure
and sacred, and now you tell me that it is heavy on your
conscience. Does one grieve, Dorothy, for the sake of that which is
good and pure and sacred?"
"I cannot answer your question," she replied. "I am no priest.
But this I know: I have done no evil, and my conscience
nevertheless is sore. Solve me the riddle, Malcolm, if you
can."
"I cannot solve your riddle, Dorothy," I replied; "but I feel
sure it will be far safer for each of us if you will tell me all
that happens hereafter."
"I am sure you are right," she responded; "but some secrets are
so delicious that we love to suck their sweets alone. I believe,
however, your advice is good, and I will tell you all that has
happened, though I cannot look you in the face while doing it." She
hesitated a moment, and her face was red with tell-tale blushes.
She continued, "I have acted most unmaidenly."
"Unmaidenly perhaps, but not unwomanly," said I.
"I thank you," she said, interrupting my sentence. It probably
was well that she did so, for I was about to add, "To act womanly
often means to get yourself into mischief and your friends into as
much trouble as possible." Had I finished my remark, she would not
have thanked me.
"Well," said the girl, beginning her laggard narrative, "after
we saw—saw him at Overhaddon, you know, I went to the village
on each of three days—"
"Yes, I know that also," I said.
"How did you—but never mind. I did not see him, and when I
returned home I felt angry and hurt and—and—but never
mind that either. One day I found him, and I at once rode to the
well where he was standing by
his horse. He drew water for Dolcy, but the perverse mare would not
drink."
"A characteristic of her sex," I muttered.
"What did you say?" asked the girl.
"Nothing."
She continued: "He seemed constrained and distant in his manner,
but I knew, that is, I thought—I mean I felt—oh, you
know—he looked as if he were glad to see me and I—I,
oh, God! I was so glad and happy to see him that I could hardly
restrain myself to act at all maidenly. He must have heard my heart
beat. I thought he was in trouble. He seemed to have something he
wished to say to me."
"He doubtless had a great deal he wished to say to you," said I,
again tempted to futile irony.
"I was sure he had something to say," the girl returned
seriously. "He was in trouble. I knew that he was, and I longed to
help him."
"What trouble?" I inquired.
"Oh, I don't know. I forgot to ask, but he looked troubled."
"Doubtless he was troubled," I responded. "He had sufficient
cause for trouble," I finished the sentence to myself with the
words, "in you."
"What was the cause of his trouble?" she hastily asked, turning
her face toward me.
"I do not know certainly," I answered in a tone of irony which
should have pierced an oak board, while the girl listened and
looked at me eagerly; "but I might guess."
"What was it? What was it? Let me hear you guess," she
asked.
"You," I responded laconically.
"I!" she exclaimed in surprise.
"Yes, you," I responded with emphasis. "You would bring trouble
to any man, but to Sir John Manners—well, if he intends to keep up these meetings with you
it would be better for his peace and happiness that he should get
him a house in hell, for he would live there more happily than on
this earth."
"That is a foolish, senseless remark, Malcolm," the girl
replied, tossing her head with a show of anger in her eyes. "This
is no time to jest." I suppose I could not have convinced her that
I was not jesting.
"At first we did not speak to each other even to say good day,
but stood by the well in silence for a very long time. The village
people were staring at us, and I felt that every window had a
hundred faces in it, and every face a hundred eyes."
"You imagined that," said I, "because of your guilty
conscience."
"Perhaps so. But it seemed to me that we stood by the well in
silence a very long time. You see, Cousin Malcolm, I was not the
one who should speak first. I had done more than my part in going
to meet him."
"Decidedly so," said I, interrupting the interesting
narrative.
"When I could bear the gaze of the villagers no longer, I drew
up my reins and started to leave The Open by the north road. After
Dolcy had climbed halfway up North Hill, which as you know
overlooks the village, I turned my head and saw Sir John still
standing by the well, resting his hand upon his horse's mane. He
was watching me. I grew angry, and determined that he should follow
me, even if I had to call him. So I drew Dolcy to a stand. Was not
that bold in me? But wait, there is worse to come, Malcolm. He did
not move, but stood like a statue looking toward me. I knew that he
wanted to come, so after a little time I—I beckoned to him
and—and then he came like a thunderbolt. Oh! it was
delicious. I put Dolcy to a gallop, for when he started toward me I
was frightened. Besides I did
not want him to overtake me till we were out of the village. But
when once he had started, he did not wait. He was as swift now as
he had been slow, and my heart throbbed and triumphed because of
his eagerness, though in truth I was afraid of him. Dolcy, you
know, is very fleet, and when I touched her with the whip she soon
put half a mile between me and the village. Then I brought her to a
walk and—and he quickly overtook me.
"When he came up to me he said: 'I feared to follow you, though
I ardently wished to do so. I dreaded to tell you my name lest you
should hate me. Sir Malcolm at The Peacock said he would not
disclose to you my identity. I am John Manners. Our fathers are
enemies.'
"Then I said to him, 'That is the reason I wish to talk to you.
I wished you to come to meet me because I wanted to tell you that I
regret and deplore the feud between our fathers.'—'Ah, you
wished me to come?' he asked.—'Of course I did,' I answered,
'else why should I be here?'—'No one regrets the feud between
our houses so deeply as I,' replied Sir John. 'I can think of
nothing else by day, nor can I dream of anything else by night. It
is the greatest cause for grief and sorrow that has ever come into
my life.' You see, Cousin Malcolm," the girl continued, "I was
right. His father's conduct does trouble him. Isn't he noble and
broad-minded to see the evil of his father's ways?"
I did not tell the girl that Sir John's regret for the feud
between the houses of Manners and Vernon grew out of the fact that
it separated him from her; nor did I tell her that he did not
grieve over his "father's ways."
I asked, "Did Sir John tell you that he grieved because of his
father's ill-doing?"
"N-o, not in set terms, but—that, of course, would have
been very hard for him to say. I told you what he said, and there
could be no other meaning to his words."
"Of course not," I
responded.
"No, and I fairly longed to reach out my hand and clutch him,
because—because I was so sorry for him."
"Was sorrow your only feeling?" I asked.
The girl looked at me for a moment, and her eyes filled with
tears. Then she sobbed gently and said, "Oh, Cousin Malcolm, you
are so old and so wise." ("Thank you," thought I, "a second Daniel
come to judgment at thirty-five; or Solomon and Methuselah in
one.") She continued: "Tell me, tell me, what is this terrible
thing that has come upon me. I seem to be living in a dream. I am
burning with a fever, and a heavy weight is here upon my breast. I
cannot sleep at night. I can do nothing but long and yearn
for—for I know not what—till at times it seems that
some frightful, unseen monster is slowly drawing the heart out of
my bosom. I think of—of him at all times, and I try to recall
his face, and the tones of his voice until, Cousin Malcolm, I tell
you I am almost mad. I call upon the Holy Virgin hour by hour to
pity me; but she is pure, and cannot know what I feel. I hate and
loathe myself. To what am I coming? Where will it all end? Yet I
can do nothing to save myself. I am powerless against this terrible
feeling. I cannot even resolve to resist it. It came upon me mildly
that day at The Peacock Inn, when I first saw him, and it grows
deeper and stronger day by day, and, alas! night by night. I seem
to have lost myself. In some strange way I feel as if I had sunk
into him—that he had absorbed me."
"The iron, the seed, the cloud, and the rain," thought I.
"I believed," continued the girl, "that if he would exert his
will I might have relief; but there again I find trouble, for I
cannot bring myself to ask him to will it. The feeling within me is
like a sore heart: painful as it is, I must keep it. Without it I
fear I could not live."
After this outburst there was a long pause during which she walked by my side, seemingly
unconscious that I was near her. I had known for some time that
Dorothy was interested in Manners; but I was not prepared to see
such a volcano of passion. I need not descant upon the evils and
dangers of the situation. The thought that first came to me was
that Sir George would surely kill his daughter before he would
allow her to marry a son of Rutland. I was revolving in my mind how
I should set about to mend the matter when Dorothy again spoke.
"Tell me, Cousin Malcolm, can a man throw a spell over a woman
and bewitch her?"
"I do not know. I have never heard of a man witch," I
responded.
"No?" asked the girl.
"But," I continued, "I do know that a woman may bewitch a man.
John Manners, I doubt not, could also testify knowingly on the
subject by this time."
"Oh, do you think he is bewitched?" cried Dorothy, grasping my
arm and looking eagerly into my face. "If I could bewitch him, I
would do it. I would deal with the devil gladly to learn the art. I
would not care for my soul. I do not fear the future. The present
is a thousand-fold dearer to me than either the past or the future.
I care not what comes hereafter. I want him now. Ah, Malcolm, pity
my shame."
She covered her face with her hands, and after a moment
continued: "I am not myself. I belong not to myself. But if I knew
that he also suffers, I do believe my pain would be less."
"I think you may set your heart at rest upon that point," I
answered. "He, doubtless, also suffers."
"I hope so," she responded, unconscious of the selfish wish she
had expressed. "If he does not, I know not what will be my
fate."
I saw that I had made a mistake in assuring her that John also suffered, and I determined to
correct it later on, if possible.
Dorothy was silent, and I said, "You have not told me about the
golden heart."
"I will tell you," she answered. "We rode for two hours or more,
and talked of the weather and the scenery, until there was nothing
more to be said concerning either. Then Sir John told me of the
court in London, where he has always lived, and of the queen whose
hair, he says, is red, but not at all like mine. I wondered if he
would speak of the beauty of my hair, but he did not. He only
looked at it. Then he told me about the Scottish queen whom he once
met when he was on an embassy to Edinburgh. He described her
marvellous beauty, and I believe he sympathizes with her
cause—that is, with her cause in Scotland. He says she has no
good cause in England. He is true to our queen. Well—well he
talked so interestingly that I could have listened a whole
month—yes, all my life."
"I suppose you could," I said.
"Yes," she continued, "but I could not remain longer from home,
and when I left him he asked me to accept a keepsake which had
belonged to his mother, as a token that there should be no feud
between him and me." And she drew from her bosom a golden heart
studded with diamonds and pierced by a white silver arrow.
"I, of course, accepted it, then we said 'good-by,' and I put
Dolcy to a gallop that she might speedily take me out of
temptation."
"Have you ridden to Overhaddon for the purpose of seeing Manners
many times since he gave you the heart?" I queried.
"What would you call 'many times'?" she asked, drooping her
head.
"Every day?" I said interrogatively. She nodded. "Yes. But I have seen him only once
since the day when he gave me the heart."
Nothing I could say would do justice to the subject, so I
remained silent.
"But you have not yet told me how your father came to know of
the golden heart," I said.
"It was this way: One morning while I was looking at the heart,
father came upon me suddenly before I could conceal it. He asked me
to tell him how I came by the jewel, and in my fright and confusion
I could think of nothing else to say, so I told him you had given
it to me. He promised not to speak to you about the heart, but he
did not keep his word. He seemed pleased."
"Doubtless he was pleased," said I, hoping to lead up to the
subject so near to Sir George's heart, but now farther than ever
from mine.
The girl unsuspectingly helped me.
"Father asked if you had spoken upon a subject of great interest
to him and to yourself, and I told him you had not. 'When he does
speak,' said father most kindly, 'I want you to grant his
request'—and I will grant it, Cousin Malcolm." She looked in
my face and continued: "I will grant your request, whatever it may
be. You are the dearest friend I have in the world, and mine is the
most loving and lovable father that girl ever had. It almost breaks
my heart when I think of his suffering should he learn of what I
have done—that which I just told to you." She walked beside
me meditatively for a moment and said, "To-morrow I will return Sir
John's gift and I will never see him again."
I felt sure that by to-morrow she would have repented of her
repentance; but I soon discovered that I had given her much more
time than she needed to perform that trifling feminine gymnastic,
for with the next breath she said:—
"I have no means of returning the heart. I must see him once more and I will give—give
it—it—back to—to him, and will tell him that I
can see him never again." She scarcely had sufficient resolution to
finish telling her intention. Whence, then, would come the will to
put it in action? Forty thieves could not have stolen the heart
from her, though she thought she was honest when she said she would
take it to him.
"Dorothy," said I, seriously but kindly, "have you and Sir John
spoken of—"
She evidently knew that I meant to say "of love," for she
interrupted me.
"N-o, but surely he knows. And I—I think—at least I
hope with all my heart that—"
"I will take the heart to Sir John," said I, interrupting her
angrily, "and you need not see him again. He has acted like a fool
and a knave. He is a villain, Dorothy, and I will tell him as much
in the most emphatic terms I have at my command."
"Dare you speak against him or to him upon the subject!" she
exclaimed, her eyes blazing with anger; "you—you asked for my
confidence and I gave it. You said I might trust you and I did so,
and now you show me that I am a fool indeed. Traitor!"
"My dear cousin," said I, seeing that she spoke the truth in
charging me with bad faith, "your secret is safe with me. I swear
it by my knighthood. You may trust me. I spoke in anger. But Sir
John has acted badly. That you cannot gainsay. You, too, have done
great evil. That also you cannot gainsay."
"No," said the girl, dejectedly, "I cannot deny it; but the
greatest evil is yet to come."
"You must do something," I continued. "You must take some
decisive step that will break this connection, and you must take
the step at once if you would save yourself from the frightful evil
that is in store for you. Forgive me for what I said, sweet cousin. My angry words
sprang from my love for you and my fear for your future."
No girl's heart was more tender to the influence of kindness
than Dorothy's. No heart was more obdurate to unkindness or
peremptory command.
My words softened her at once, and she tried to smother the
anger I had aroused. But she did not entirely succeed, and a spark
remained which in a moment or two created a disastrous
conflagration. You shall hear.
She walked by my side in silence for a little time, and then
spoke in a low, slightly sullen tone which told of her effort to
smother her resentment.
"I do trust you, Cousin Malcolm. What is it that you wish to ask
of me? Your request is granted before it is made."
"Do not be too sure of that, Dorothy," I replied. "It is a
request your father ardently desires me to make, and I do not know
how to speak to you concerning the subject in the way I wish."
I could not ask her to marry me, and tell her with the same
breath that I did not want her for my wife. I felt I must wait for
a further opportunity to say that I spoke only because her father
had required me to do so, and that circumstances forced me to put
the burden of refusal upon her. I well knew that she would refuse
me, and then I intended to explain.
"Why, what is it all about?" asked the girl in surprise,
suspecting, I believe, what was to follow.
"It is this: your father is anxious that his vast estates shall
not pass out of the family name, and he wishes you to be my wife,
so that your children may bear the loved name of Vernon."
I could not have chosen a more inauspicious time to speak. She
looked at me for an instant in surprise, turning to scorn. Then she spoke in tones of
withering contempt.
"Tell my father that I shall never bear a child by the name of
Vernon. I would rather go barren to my grave. Ah! that is why Sir
John Manners is a villain? That is why a decisive step should be
taken? That is why you come to my father's house a-fortune-hunting?
After you have squandered your patrimony and have spent a dissolute
youth in profligacy, after the women of the class you have known
will have no more of you but choose younger men, you who are old
enough to be my father come here and seek your fortune, as your
father sought his, by marriage. I do not believe that my father
wishes me to—to marry you. You have wheedled him into giving
his consent when he was in his cups. But even if he wished it with
all his heart, I would not marry you." Then she turned and walked
rapidly toward the Hall.
Her fierce words angered me; for in the light of my real
intentions her scorn was uncalled for, and her language was
insulting beyond endurance. For a moment or two the hot blood
rushed to my brain and rendered me incapable of intelligent
thought. But as Dorothy walked from me I realized that something
must be done at once to put myself right with her. When my fit of
temper had cooled, and when I considered that the girl did not know
my real intentions, I could not help acknowledging that in view of
all that had just passed between us concerning Sir John Manners,
and, in fact, in view of all that she had seen and could see, her
anger was justifiable.
I called to her: "Dorothy, wait a moment. You have not heard all
I have to say."
She hastened her pace. A few rapid strides brought me to her
side. I was provoked, not at her words, for they were almost
justifiable, but because she would not stop to hear me. I grasped her rudely by the arm
and said:—
"Listen till I have finished."
"I will not," she answered viciously. "Do not touch me."
I still held her by the arm and said: "I do not wish to marry
you. I spoke only because your father desired me to do so, and
because my refusal to speak would have offended him beyond any
power of mine to make amends. I could not tell you that I did not
wish you for my wife until you had given me an opportunity. I was
forced to throw the burden of refusal upon you."
"That is but a ruse—a transparent, flimsy ruse," responded
the stubborn, angry girl, endeavoring to draw her arm from my
grasp.
"It is not a ruse," I answered. "If you will listen to me and
will help me by acting as I suggest, we may between us bring your
father to our way of thinking, and I may still be able to retain
his friendship."
"What is your great plan?" asked Dorothy, in a voice such as one
might expect to hear from a piece of ice.
"I have formed no plan as yet," I replied, "although I have
thought of several. Until we can determine upon one, I suggest that
you permit me to say to your father that I have asked you to be my
wife, and that the subject has come upon you so suddenly that you
wish a short time,—a fortnight or a month—in which to
consider your answer."
"That is but a ruse, I say, to gain time," she answered
contemptuously. "I do not wish one moment in which to consider. You
already have my answer. I should think you had had enough. Do you
desire more of the same sort? A little of such treatment should go
a long way with a man possessed of one spark of honor or
self-respect."
Her language would have angered a sheep.
"If you will not listen to
me," I answered, thoroughly aroused and careless of consequences,
"go to your father. Tell him I asked you to be my wife, and that
you scorned my suit. Then take the consequences. He has always been
gentle and tender to you because there has been no conflict. Cross
his desires, and you will learn a fact of which you have never
dreamed. You have seen the manner in which he treats others who
oppose him. You will learn that with you, too, he can be one of the
cruelest and most violent of men."
"You slander my father. I will go to him as you advise and will
tell him that I would not marry you if you wore the English crown.
I, myself, will tell him of my meeting with Sir John Manners rather
than allow you the pleasure of doing so. He will be angry, but he
will pity me."
"For God's sake, Dorothy, do not tell your father of your
meetings at Overhaddon. He would kill you. Have you lived in the
same house with him all these years and do you not better know his
character than to think that you may go to him with the tale you
have just told me, and that he will forgive you? Feel as you will
toward me, but believe me when I swear to you by my knighthood that
I will betray to no person what you have this day divulged to
me."
Dorothy made no reply, but turned from me and rapidly walked
toward the Hall. I followed at a short distance, and all my anger
was displaced by fear for her. When we reached the Hall she quickly
sought her father and approached him in her old free manner, full
of confidence in her influence over him.
"Father, this man"—waving her hand toward me—"has
come to Haddon Hall a-fortune-hunting. He has asked me to be his
wife, and says you wish me to accept him."
"Yes, Doll, I certainly wish
it with all my heart," returned Sir George, affectionately, taking
his daughter's hand.
"Then you need wish it no longer, for I will not marry him."
"What?" demanded her father, springing to his feet.
"I will not. I will not. I will not."
"You will if I command you to do so, you damned insolent wench,"
answered Sir George, hoarsely. Dorothy's eyes opened in wonder.
"Do not deceive yourself, father, for one moment," she retorted
contemptuously. "He has come here in sheep's clothing and has
adroitly laid his plans to convince you that I should marry him,
but—"
"He has done nothing of the sort," answered Sir George, growing
more angry every moment, but endeavoring to be calm. "Nothing of
the sort. Many years ago I spoke to him on this subject, which is
very dear to my heart. The project has been dear to me ever since
you were a child. When I again broached it to Malcolm a fortnight
or more since I feared from his manner that he was averse to the
scheme. I had tried several times to speak to him about it, but he
warded me off, and when I did speak, I feared that he was not
inclined to it."
"Yes," interrupted the headstrong girl, apparently bent upon
destroying both of us. "He pretended that he did not wish to marry
me. He said he wished me to give a sham consent for the purpose of
gaining time till we might hit upon some plan by which we could
change your mind. He said he had no desire nor intention to marry
me. It was but a poor, lame ruse on his part."
During Dorothy's recital Sir George turned his face from her to
me. When she had finished speaking, he looked at me for a moment
and said:—
"Does my daughter speak the truth? Did you say—"
"Yes," I promptly replied, "I
have no intention of marrying your daughter." Then hoping to place
myself before Sir George in a better light, I continued: "I could
not accept the hand of a lady against her will. I told you as much
when we conversed on the subject."
"What?" exclaimed Sir George, furious with anger. "You too? You
whom I have befriended?"
"I told you, Sir George, I would not marry Dorothy without her
free consent. No gentleman of honor would accept the enforced
compliance of a woman."
"But Doll says that you told her you had no intention of
marrying her even should she consent," replied Sir George.
"I don't know that I spoke those exact words," I replied, "but
you may consider them said."
"You damned, ungrateful, treacherous hound!" stormed Sir George.
"You listened to me when I offered you my daughter's hand, and you
pretended to consent without at the time having any intention of
doing so."
"That, I suppose, is true, Sir George," said I, making a
masterful effort against anger. "That is true, for I knew that
Dorothy would not consent; and had I been inclined to the marriage,
I repeat, I would marry no woman against her will. No gentleman
would do it."
My remark threw Sir George into a paroxysm of rage.
"I did it, you cur, you dog, you—you traitorous,
ungrateful—I did it."
"Then, Sir George," said I, interrupting him, for I was no
longer able to restrain my anger, "you were a cowardly
poltroon."
"This to me in my house!" he cried, grasping a chair with which
to strike me. Dorothy came between us.
"Yes," said I, "and as much more as you wish to hear." I stood
my ground, and Sir George put down the chair.
"Leave my house at once," he
said in a whisper of rage.
"If you are on my premises in one hour from now I will have you
flogged from my door by the butcher."
"What have I done?" cried Dorothy. "What have I done?"
"Your regrets come late, Mistress Vernon," said I.
"She shall have more to regret," said Sir George, sullenly. "Go
to your room, you brazen, disobedient huzzy, and if you leave it
without my permission, by God, I will have you whipped till you
bleed. I will teach you to say 'I won't' when I say 'you shall.'
God curse my soul, if I don't make you repent this day!"
As I left the room Dorothy was in tears, and Sir George was
walking the floor in a towering rage. The girl had learned that I
was right in what I had told her concerning her father's violent
temper.
I went at once to my room in Eagle Tower and collected my few
belongings in a bundle. Pitifully small it was, I tell you.
Where I should go I knew not, and where I should remain I knew
even less, for my purse held only a few shillings—the remnant
of the money Queen Mary had sent to me by the hand of Sir Thomas
Douglas. England was as unsafe for me as Scotland; but how I might
travel to France without money, and how I might without a pass
evade Elizabeth's officers who guarded every English port, even
were I supplied with gold, were problems for which I had no
solution.
There were but two persons in Haddon Hall to whom I cared to say
farewell. They were Lady Madge and Will Dawson. The latter was a
Scot, and was attached to the cause of Queen Mary. He and I had
become friends, and on several occasions we had talked
confidentially over Mary's sad plight.
When my bundle was packed, I sought Madge and found her in the gallery near the foot of the
great staircase. She knew my step and rose to greet me with a
bright smile.
"I have come to say good-by to you, Cousin Madge," said I. The
smile vanished from her face.
"You are not going to leave Haddon Hall?" she asked.
"Yes, and forever," I responded. "Sir George has ordered me to
go."
"No, no," she exclaimed. "I cannot believe it. I supposed that
you and my uncle were friends. What has happened? Tell me if you
can—if you wish. Let me touch your hand," and as she held out
her hands, I gladly grasped them.
I have never seen anything more beautiful than Madge Stanley's
hands. They were not small, but their shape, from the fair, round
forearm and wrist to the ends of the fingers was worthy of a
sculptor's dream. Beyond their physical beauty there was an
expression in them which would have belonged to her eyes had she
possessed the sense of sight. The flood of her vital energy had for
so many years been directed toward her hands as a substitute for
her lost eyesight that their sensitiveness showed itself not only
in an infinite variety of delicate gestures and movements, changing
with her changing moods, but they had an expression of their own,
such as we look for in the eyes. I had gazed upon her hands so
often, and had studied so carefully their varying expression,
discernible both to my sight and to my touch, that I could read her
mind through them as we read the emotions of others through the
countenance. The "feel" of her hands, if I may use the word, I can
in no way describe. Its effect on me was magical. The happiest
moments I have ever known were those when I held the fair blind
girl by the hand and strolled upon the great terrace or followed
the babbling winding course of
dear old Wye, and drank in the elixir of all that is good and pure
from the cup of her sweet, unconscious influence.
Madge, too, had found happiness in our strolling. She had also
found health and strength, and, marvellous to say, there had come
to her a slight improvement in vision. She had always been able to
distinguish sunlight from darkness, but with renewed strength had
come the power dimly to discern dark objects in a strong light, and
even that small change for the better had brought unspeakable
gladness to her heart. She said she owed it all to me. A faint pink
had spread itself in her cheeks and a plumpness had been imparted
to her form which gave to her ethereal beauty a touch of the
material. Nor was this to be regretted, for no man can adequately
make love to a woman who has too much of the angel in her. You must
not think, however, that I had been making love to Madge. On the
contrary, I again say, the thought had never entered my mind.
Neither at that time had I even suspected that she would listen to
me upon the great theme. I had in my self-analysis assigned many
reasons other than love for my tenderness toward her; but when I
was about to depart, and she impulsively gave me her hands, I,
believing that I was grasping them for the last time, felt the
conviction come upon me that she was dearer to me than all else in
life.
"Do you want to tell me why my uncle has driven you from
Haddon?" she asked.
"He wished me to ask Dorothy to be my wife," I returned.
"And you?" she queried.
"I did so."
Instantly the girl withdrew her hands from mine and stepped back
from me. Then I had another revelation. I knew what she meant and
felt. Her hands told me all, even had there been no expression in her movement and
in her face.
"Dorothy refused," I continued, "and her father desired to force
her into compliance. I would not be a party to the transaction, and
Sir George ordered me to leave his house."
After a moment of painful silence Madge said:—"I do not
wonder that you should wish to marry Dorothy. She—she must be
very beautiful."
"I do not wish to marry Dorothy," said I. I heard a slight noise
back of me, but gave it no heed. "And I should not have married her
had she consented. I knew that Dorothy would refuse me, therefore I
promised Sir George that I would ask her to be my wife. Sir George
had always been my friend, and should I refuse to comply with his
wishes, I well knew he would be my enemy. He is bitterly angry
against me now; but when he becomes calm, he will see wherein he
has wronged me. I asked Dorothy to help me, but she would not
listen to my plan."
"—and now she begs your forgiveness," cried Dorothy, as
she ran weeping to me, and took my hand most humbly.
"Dorothy! Dorothy!" I exclaimed.
"What frightful evil have I brought upon you?" said she. "Where
can you go? What will you do?"
"I know not," I answered. "I shall probably go to the Tower of
London when Queen Elizabeth's officers learn of my quarrel with Sir
George. But I will try to escape to France."
"Have you money?" asked Madge, tightly holding one of my
hands.
"A small sum," I answered.
"How much have you? Tell me. Tell me how much have you,"
insisted Madge, clinging to my hand and speaking with a force that
would brook no refusal.
"A very little sum, I am
sorry to say; only a few shillings," I responded.
She quickly withdrew her hand from mine and began to remove the
baubles from her ears and the brooch from her throat. Then she
nervously stripped the rings from her fingers and held out the
little handful of jewels toward me, groping for my hands.
"Take these, Malcolm. Take these, and wait here till I return."
She turned toward the staircase, but in her confusion she missed
it, and before I could reach her, she struck against the great
newel post.
"God pity me," she said, as I took her hand. "I wish I were
dead. Please lead me to the staircase, Cousin Malcolm. Thank
you."
She was weeping gently when she started up the steps, and I knew
that she was going to fetch me her little treasure of gold.
Madge held up the skirt of her gown with one hand while she
grasped the banister with the other. She was halfway up when
Dorothy, whose generous impulses needed only to be prompted, ran
nimbly and was about to pass her on the staircase when Madge
grasped her gown.
"Please don't, Dorothy. Please do not. I beg you, do not
forestall me. Let me do this. Let me. You have all else to make you
happy. Don't take this from me only because you can see and can
walk faster than I."
Dorothy did not stop, but hurried past her. Madge sank upon the
steps and covered her face with her hands. Then she came gropingly
back to me just as Dorothy returned.
"Take these, Cousin Malcolm," cried Dorothy. "Here are a few
stones of great value. They belonged to my mother."
Madge was sitting dejectedly upon the lowest step of the staircase. Dorothy held her
jewel-box toward me, and in the midst of the diamonds and gold I
saw the heart John Manners had given her. I did not take the
box.
"Do you offer me this, too—even this?" I said, lifting the
heart from the box by its chain.—"Yes, yes," cried Dorothy,
"even that, gladly, gladly." I replaced it in the box.
Then spoke Madge, while she tried to check the falling
tears:—"Dorothy, you are a cruel, selfish girl."
"Oh, Madge," cried Dorothy, stepping to her side and taking her
hand. "How can you speak so unkindly to me?"
"You have everything good," interrupted Madge. "You have beauty,
wealth, eyesight, and yet you would not leave to me the joy of
helping him. I could not see, and you hurried past me that you
might be first to give him the help of which I was the first to
think."
Dorothy was surprised at the outburst from Madge, and kneeled by
her side.
"We may both help Cousin Malcolm," she said.
"No, no," responded Madge, angrily. "Your jewels are more than
enough. He would have no need of my poor offering."
I took Madge's hand and said, "I shall accept help from no one
but you, Madge; from no one but you."
"I will go to our rooms for your box," said Dorothy, who had
begun to see the trouble. "I will fetch it for you."
"No, I will fetch it," answered Madge. She arose, and I led her
to the foot of the staircase. When she returned she held in her
hands a purse and a little box of jewels. These she offered to me,
but I took only the purse, saying: "I accept the purse. It contains
more money than I shall need. From its weight I should say there
are twenty gold pounds sterling."
"Twenty-five," answered
Madge. "I have saved them, believing that the time might come when
they would be of great use to me. I did not know the joy I was
saving for myself."
Tears came to my eyes, and Dorothy wept silently.
"Will you not take the jewels also?" asked Madge.
"No," I responded; "the purse will more than pay my expenses to
France, where I have wealthy relatives. There I may have my
mother's estate for the asking, and I can repay you the gold. I can
never repay your kindness."
"I hope you will never offer to repay the gold," said Madge.
"I will not," I gladly answered.
"As to the kindness," she said, "you have paid me in advance for
that many, many times over."
I then said farewell, promising to send letters telling of my
fortune. As I was leaving I bent forward and kissed Madge upon the
forehead, while she gently pressed my hand, but did not speak a
word.
"Cousin Malcolm," said Dorothy, who held my other hand, "you are
a strong, gentle, noble man, and I want you to say that you forgive
me."
"I do forgive you, Dorothy, from my heart. I could not blame you
if I wished to do so, for you did not know what you were
doing."
"Not to know is sometimes the greatest of sins," answered
Dorothy. I bent forward to kiss her cheek in token of my full
forgiveness, but she gave me her lips and said: "I shall never
again be guilty of not knowing that you are good and true and
noble, Cousin Malcolm, and I shall never again doubt your wisdom or
your good faith when you speak to me." She did doubt me afterward,
but I fear her doubt was with good cause. I shall tell you of it in
the proper place.
Then I forced myself to leave
my fair friends and went to the gateway under Eagle Tower, where I
found Will Dawson waiting for me with my horse.
"Sir George ordered me to bring your horse," said Will. "He
seemed much excited. Has anything disagreeable happened? Are you
leaving us? I see you wear your steel cap and breastplate and are
carrying your bundle."
"Yes, Will, your master has quarrelled with me and I must leave
his house."
"But where do you go, Sir Malcolm? You remember that of which we
talked? In England no place but Haddon Hall will be safe for you,
and the ports are so closely guarded that you will certainly be
arrested if you try to sail for France."
"I know all that only too well, Will. But I must go, and I will
try to escape to France. If you wish to communicate with me, I may
be found by addressing a letter in care of the Duc de Guise."
"If I can ever be of help to you," said Will, "personally, or in
that other matter, Queen Mary, you understand,—you have only
to call on me."
"I thank you, Will," I returned, "I shall probably accept your
kind offer sooner than you anticipate. Do you know Jennie Faxton,
the ferrier's daughter?"
"I do," he responded.
"I believe she may be trusted," I said.
"Indeed, I believe she is true as any steel in her father's
shop," Will responded.
"Good-by, Will, you may hear from me soon."
I mounted and rode back of the terrace, taking my way along the
Wye toward Rowsley. When I turned and looked back, I saw Dorothy
standing upon the terrace. By her side, dressed in white, stood
Madge. Her hand was covering her eyes. A step or two below them on
the terrace staircase stood Will
Dawson. They were three stanch friends, although one of them had
brought my troubles upon me. After all, I was leaving Haddon Hall
well garrisoned. My heart also was well garrisoned with a faithful
troop of pain. But I shall write no more of that time. It was too
full of bitterness.