At all
events Robert proposed it, and there was not a dissenting voice. There was not
one but was ready to follow when he led the way. He did not lead the way,
however, he directed the way; and he himself loitered behind with the lovers,
who had betrayed a disposition to linger and hold themselves apart. He walked
between them, whether with malicious or mischievous intent was not wholly clear,
even to himself.
The Pontelliers and
Ratignolles walked ahead; the women leaning upon the arms of their husbands.
Edna could hear Robert's voice behind them, and could sometimes hear what he
said. She wondered why he did not join them. It was unlike him not to. Of late
he had sometimes held away from her for an entire day, redoubling his devotion
upon the next and
the next, as though to make up for hours that had been lost. She missed him
the days when some pretext served to take him away from her, just as one misses
the sun on a cloudy day without having thought much about the sun when it was
shining.
The people walked in little
groups toward the beach. They talked and laughed; some of them sang. There was a
band playing down at Klein's hotel, and the strains reached them faintly,
tempered by the distance. There were strange, rare odors abroad - a tangle of
the sea smell and of weeds and damp, new-plowed earth, mingled with the heavy
perfume of a field of white blossoms somewhere near. But the night sat lightly
upon the sea and the land. There was no weight of darkness; there were no
shadows. The white light of the moon had fallen upon the world like the mystery
and the softness of sleep.
Most of them walked into the
water as though into a native element. The sea was quiet now, and swelled lazily
in broad billows that melted into one another and did not break except upon the
beach in little
foamy crests that coiled back like slow, white serpents.
Edna had attempted all summer
to learn to swim. She had received instructions from both the men and women; in
some instances from the children. Robert had pursued a system of lessons almost
daily; and he was nearly at the point of discouragement in realizing the
futility of his efforts. A certain ungovernable dread hung about her when in the
water, unless there was a hand near by that might reach out and reassure her.
But that night she was like
the little tottering, stumbling, clutching child, who of a sudden realizes its
powers, and walks for the first time alone, boldly and with over-confidence. She
could have shouted for joy. She did shout for joy, as with a sweeping stroke or
two she lifted her body to the surface of the water.
A feeling of exultation
overtook her, as if some power of significant import had been given her to
control the working of her body and her soul. She grew daring and reckless,
overestimating her strength. She
wanted to swim far out, where no woman had swum before.
Her unlooked-for achievement
was the subject of wonder, applause, and admiration. Each one congratulated
himself that his special teachings had accomplished this desired end.
"How easy it is!" she
thought. "It is nothing," she said aloud; "why did I not discover before that it
was nothing. Think of the time I have lost splashing about like a baby!" She
would not join the groups in their sports and bouts, but intoxicated with her
newly conquered power, she swam out alone.
She turned face seaward to
gather in an impression of space and solitude, which the vast expanse of water,
meeting and melting with the moonlit sky, conveyed to her excited fancy. As she
swam she seemed to be reaching out for the unlimited in which to lose herself.
Once she turned and looked
toward the shore, toward the people she had left there. She had not gone any
great distance - that is, what would have been a great distance
for an experienced swimmer. But to her unaccustomed vision the stretch of
water behind her assumed the aspect of a barrier which her unaided strength
would never be able to overcome.
A quick vision of death smote
her soul, and for a second of time appalled and enfeebled her senses. But by an
effort she rallied her staggering faculties and managed to regain the land.
She made no mention of her
encounter with death and her flash of terror, except to say to her husband, "I
thought I should have perished out there alone."
"You were not so very far, my
dear; I was watching you," he told her.
Edna went at once to the
bath-house, and she had put on her dry clothes and was ready to return home
before the others had left the water. She started to walk away alone. They all
called to her and shouted to her. She waved a dissenting hand, and went on,
paying no further heed to their renewed cries which sought to detain her.
"Sometimes I am tempted to
think that
Mrs. Pontellier is capricious," said Madame Lebrun, who was amusing herself
immensely and feared that Edna's abrupt departure might put an end to the
pleasure.
"I know she is," assented Mr.
Pontellier; "sometimes, not often."
Edna had not traversed a
quarter of the distance on her way home before she was overtaken by Robert.
"Did you think I was afraid?"
she asked him, without a shade of annoyance.
"No; I knew you weren't
afraid."
"Then why did you come? Why
didn't you stay out there with the others?"
"I never thought of it."
"Thought of what?"
"Of anything. What difference
does it make?"
"I'm very tired," she
uttered, complainingly.
"I know you are."
"You don't know anything
about it. Why should you know? I never was so exhausted in my life. But it isn't
unpleasant. A thousand emotions have swept through me to-night. I don't
comprehend half of them. Don't mind what I'm saying; I am just thinking aloud. I
wonder if I shall ever be stirred again as Mademoiselle Reisz's playing moved me
to-night. I wonder if any night on earth will ever again be like this one. It is
like a night in a dream. The people about me are like some uncanny, half-human
beings. There must be spirits abroad to-night."
"There are," whispered
Robert. "Didn't you know this was the twenty-eighth of August?"
"The twenty-eighth of
August?"
"Yes. On the twenty-eighth of
August, at the hour of midnight, and if the moon is shining - the moon must be
shining - a spirit that has haunted these shores for ages rises up from the
Gulf. With its own penetrating vision the spirit seeks some one mortal worthy to
hold him company, worthy of being exalted for a few hours into realms of the
semi-celestials. His search has always hitherto been fruitless, and he has sunk
back, disheartened, into the sea. But to-night he found Mrs. Pontellier. Perhaps
he will never wholly release her
from the spell. Perhaps she will never again suffer a poor, unworthy
earthling to walk in the shadow of her divine presence."
"Don't banter me," she said,
wounded at what appeared to be his flippancy. He did not mind the entreaty, but
the tone with its delicate note of pathos was like a reproach. He could not
explain; he could not tell her that he had penetrated her mood and understood.
He said nothing except to offer her his arm, for, by her own admission, she was
exhausted. She had been walking alone with her arms hanging limp, letting her
white skirts trail along the dewy path. She took his arm, but she did not lean
upon it. She let her hand lie listlessly, as though her thoughts were elsewhere
- somewhere in advance of her body, and she was striving to overtake them.
Robert assisted her into the
hammock which swung from the post before her door out to the trunk of a tree.
"Will you stay out here and
wait for Mr. Pontellier?" he asked.
"I'll stay out here.
Good-night."
"Shall I get you a pillow?"
"There's one here," she said,
feeling about, for they were in the shadow.
"It must be soiled; the
children have been tumbling it about."
"No matter." And having
discovered the pillow, she adjusted it beneath her head. She extended herself in
the hammock with a deep breath of relief. She was not a supercilious or an
over-dainty woman. She was not much given to reclining in the hammock, and when
she did so it was with no cat-like suggestion of voluptuous ease, but with a
beneficent repose which seemed to invade her whole body.
"Shall I stay with you till
Mr. Pontellier comes?" asked Robert, seating himself on the outer edge of one of
the steps and taking hold of the hammock rope which was fastened to the post.
"If you wish. Don't swing the
hammock. Will you get my white shawl which I left on the window-sill over at the
house?"
"Are you chilly?"
"No; but I shall be
presently."
"Presently?" he laughed. "Do
you know what time it is? How long are you going to stay out here?"
"I don't know. Will you get
the shawl?"
"Of course I will," he said,
rising. He went over to the house, walking along the grass. She watched his
figure pass in and out of the strips of moonlight. It was past midnight. It was
very quiet.
When he returned with the
shawl she took it and kept it in her hand. She did not put it around her.
"Did you say I should stay
till Mr. Pontellier came back?"
"I said you might if you
wished to."
He seated himself again and
rolled a cigarette, which he smoked in silence. Neither did Mrs. Pontellier
speak. No multitude of words could have been more significant than those moments
of silence, or more pregnant with the first-felt throbbings of desire.
When the voices of the
bathers were heard approaching, Robert said good-night. She did not answer him.
He thought she was asleep. Again she watched his figure pass in and out of the
strips of moonlight as he walked away.