"Do you
miss your friend greatly?" asked Mademoiselle Reisz one morning as she came
creeping up behind Edna, who had just left her cottage on her way to the beach.
She spent much of her time in the water since she had acquired finally the art
of swimming. As their stay at Grand Isle drew near its close, she felt that she
could not give too much time to a diversion which afforded her the only real
pleasurable moments that she knew. When Mademoiselle Reisz came and touched her
upon the shoulder and spoke to her, the woman seemed to echo the thought which
was ever in Edna's mind; or, better, the feeling which constantly possessed her.
Robert's going had some way
taken the brightness, the color, the meaning out of everything. The conditions
of her life were in no way changed, but her whole existence was dulled, like a
faded garment
which seems to be no longer worth wearing. She sought him everywhere - in
others whom she induced to talk about him. She went up in the mornings to Madame
Lebrun's room, braving the clatter of the old sewing-machine. She sat there and
chatted at intervals as Robert had done. She gazed around the room at the
pictures and photographs hanging upon the wall, and discovered in some corner an
old family album, which she examined with the keenest interest, appealing to
Madame Lebrun for enlightenment concerning the many figures and faces which she
discovered between its pages.
There was a picture of Madame
Lebrun with Robert as a baby, seated in her lap, a round-faced infant with a
fist in his mouth. The eyes alone in the baby suggested the man. And that was he
also in kilts, at the age of five, wearing long curls and holding a whip in his
hand. It made Edna laugh, and she laughed, too, at the portrait in his first
long trousers; while another interested her, taken when he left for college,
looking thin, long-faced, with eyes full of fire,
ambition and great intentions. But there was no recent picture, none which
suggested the Robert who had gone away five days ago, leaving a void and
wilderness behind him.
"Oh, Robert stopped having
his pictures taken when he had to pay for them himself! He found wiser use for
his money, he says," explained Madame Lebrun. She had a letter from him, written
before he left New Orleans. Edna wished to see the letter, and Madame Lebrun
told her to look for it either on the table or the dresser, or perhaps it was on
the mantelpiece.
The letter was on the
bookshelf. It possessed the greatest interest and attraction for Edna; the
envelope, its size and shape, the post-mark, the handwriting. She examined every
detail of the outside before opening it. There were only a few lines, setting
forth that he would leave the city that afternoon, that he had packed his trunk
in good shape, that he was well, and sent her his love and begged to be
affectionately remembered to all. There was no special message to Edna except a
postscript saying that if Mrs. Pontellier desired
to finish the book which he had been reading to her, his mother would find it
in his room, among other books there on the table. Edna experienced a pang of
jealousy because he had written to his mother rather than to her.
Every one seemed to take for
granted that she missed him. Even her husband, when he came down the Saturday
following Robert's departure, expressed regret that he had gone.
"How do you get on without
him, Edna?" he asked.
"It's very dull without him,"
she admitted. Mr. Pontellier had seen Robert in the city, and Edna asked him a
dozen questions or more. Where had they met? On Carondelet Street, in the
morning. They had gone "in" and had a drink and a cigar together. What had they
talked about? Chiefly about his prospects in Mexico, which Mr. Pontellier
thought were promising. How did he look? How did he seem - grave, or gay, or
how? Quite cheerful, and wholly taken up with the idea of his trip, which Mr.
Pontellier found altogether
natural in a young fellow about to seek fortune and adventure in a strange,
queer country.
Edna tapped her foot
impatiently, and wondered why the children persisted in playing in the sun when
they might be under the trees. She went down and led them out of the sun,
scolding the quadroon for not being more attentive.
It did not strike her as in
the least grotesque that she should be making of Robert the object of
conversation and leading her husband to speak of him. The sentiment which she
entertained for Robert in no way resembled that which she felt for her husband,
or had ever felt, or ever expected to feel. She had all her life long been
accustomed to harbor thoughts and emotions which never voiced themselves. They
had never taken the form of struggles. They belonged to her and were her own,
and she entertained the conviction that she had a right to them and that they
concerned no one but herself. Edna had once told Madame Ratignolle that she
would never sacrifice herself for her children, or for any one.
Then had followed a rather heated argument; the two women did not appear to
understand each other or to be talking the same language. Edna tried to appease
her friend, to explain.
"I would give up the
unessential; I would give my money, I would give my life for my children; but I
wouldn't give myself. I can't make it more clear; it's only something which I am
beginning to comprehend, which is revealing itself to me."
"I don't know what you would
call the essential, or what you mean by the unessential," said Madame
Ratignolle, cheerfully; "but a woman who would give her life for her children
could do no more than that - your Bible tells you so. I'm sure I couldn't do
more than that."
"Oh, yes you could!" laughed
Edna.
She was not surprised at
Mademoiselle Reisz's question the morning that lady, following her to the beach,
tapped her on the shoulder and asked if she did not greatly miss her young
friend.
"Oh, good morning,
Mademoiselle; is it
you? Why, of course I miss Robert. Are you going down to bathe?"
"Why should I go down to
bathe at the very end of the season when I haven't been in the surf all summer,"
replied the woman, disagreeably.
"I beg your pardon," offered
Edna, in some embarrassment, for she should have remembered that Mademoiselle
Reisz's avoidance of the water had furnished a theme for much pleasantry. Some
among them thought it was on account of her false hair, or the dread of getting
the violets wet, while others attributed it to the natural aversion for water
sometimes believed to accompany the artistic temperament. Mademoiselle offered
Edna some chocolates in a paper bag, which she took from her pocket, by way of
showing that she bore no ill feeling. She habitually ate chocolates for their
sustaining quality; they contained much nutriment in small compass, she said.
They saved her from starvation, as Madame Lebrun's table was utterly impossible;
and no one save so impertinent a woman as Madame Lebrun could think of offering
such food to people and requiring them to pay for it.
"She must feel very lonely
without her son," said Edna, desiring to change the subject. "Her favorite son,
too. It must have been quite hard to let him go."
Mademoiselle laughed
maliciously.
"Her favorite son! Oh, dear!
Who could have been imposing such a tale upon you? Aline Lebrun lives for
Victor, and for Victor alone. She has spoiled him into the worthless creature he
is. She worships him and the ground he walks on. Robert is very well in a way,
to give up all the money he can earn to the family, and keep the barest pittance
for himself. Favorite son, indeed! I miss the poor fellow myself, my dear. I
liked to see him and to hear him about the place - the only Lebrun who is worth
a pinch of salt. He comes to see me often in the city. I like to play to him.
That Victor! hanging would be too good for him. It's a wonder Robert hasn't
beaten him to death long ago."
"I thought he had great
patience with his brother," offered Edna, glad to be
talking about Robert, no matter what was said.
"Oh! he thrashed him well
enough a year or two ago," said Mademoiselle. "It was about a Spanish girl, whom
Victor considered that he had some sort of claim upon. He met Robert one day
talking to the girl, or walking with her, or bathing with her, or carrying her
basket - I don't remember what; - and he became so insulting and abusive that
Robert gave him a thrashing on the spot that has kept him comparatively in order
for a good while. It's about time he was getting another."
"Was her name Mariequita?"
asked Edna.
"Mariequita - yes, that was
it; Mariequita. I had forgotten. Oh, she's a sly one, and a bad one, that
Mariequita!"
Edna looked down at
Mademoiselle Reisz and wondered how she could have listened to her venom so
long. For some reason she felt depressed, almost unhappy. She had not intended
to go into the water; but she donned her bathing suit, and left Mademoiselle
alone, seated under the shade
of the children's tent. The water was growing cooler as the season advanced.
Edna plunged and swam about with an abandon that thrilled and invigorated her.
She remained a time in the water, hoping that Mademoiselle Reisz would not wait
for her.
But Mademoiselle waited. She
was very amiable during the walk back, and raved much over Edna's appearance in
her bathing suit. She talked about music. She hoped that Edna would go to see
her in the city, and wrote her address with the stub of a pencil on a piece of
card which she found in her pocket.
"When do you leave?" asked
Edna.
"Next Monday; and you?"
"The following week,"
answered Edna, adding, "It has been a pleasant summer, hasn't it, Mademoiselle?"
"Well," agreed Mademoiselle
Reisz, with a shrug, "rather pleasant, if it hadn't been for the mosquitoes and
the Farival twins."