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Arobin wrote Edna an elaborate note of apology, palpitant with sincerity. It
embarrassed her; for in a cooler, quieter moment it appeared to her absurd that
she should have taken his action so seriously, so dramatically. She felt sure
that the significance of the whole occurrence had lain in her own
self-consciousness. If she ignored his note it would give undue importance to a
trivial affair. If she replied to it in a serious spirit it would still leave in
his mind the impression that she had in a susceptible moment yielded to his
influence. After all, it was no great matter to have one's hand kissed. She was
provoked at his having written the apology. She answered in as light and
bantering a spirit as she fancied it deserved, and said she would be glad to
have him look in upon her at work whenever he felt the inclination and his
business gave him the opportunity.
He responded at once by
presenting himself at her home with all his disarming naïveté. And then there
was scarcely a day which followed that she did not see him or was not reminded
of him. He was prolific in pretexts. His attitude became one of good-humored
subservience and tacit adoration. He was ready at all times to submit to her
moods, which were as often kind as they were cold. She grew accustomed to him.
They became intimate and friendly by imperceptible degrees, and then by leaps.
He sometimes talked in a way that astonished her at first and brought the
crimson into her face; in a way that pleased her at last, appealing to the
animalism that stirred impatiently within her.
There was nothing which so
quieted the turmoil of Edna's senses as a visit to Mademoiselle Reisz. It was
then, in the presence of that personality which was offensive to her, that the
woman, by her divine art, seemed to reach Edna's spirit and set it free.
It was misty, with heavy,
lowering atmosphere, one afternoon, when Edna climbed the stairs to the
pianist's apartments under
the roof. Her clothes were dripping with moisture. She felt chilled and
pinched as she entered the room. Mademoiselle was poking at a rusty stove that
smoked a little and warmed the room indifferently. She was endeavoring to heat a
pot of chocolate on the stove. The room looked cheerless and dingy to Edna as
she entered. A bust of Beethoven, covered with a hood of dust, scowled at her
from the mantelpiece.
"Ah! here comes the
sunlight!" exclaimed Mademoiselle, rising from her knees before the stove. "Now
it will be warm and bright enough; I can let the fire alone."
She closed the stove door
with a bang, and approaching, assisted in removing Edna's dripping mackintosh.
"You are cold; you look
miserable. The chocolate will soon be hot. But would you rather have a taste of
brandy? I have scarcely touched the bottle which you brought me for my cold." A
piece of red flannel was wrapped around Mademoiselle's throat; a stiff neck
compelled her to hold her head on one side.
"I will take some brandy,"
said Edna, shivering as she removed her gloves and overshoes. She drank the
liquor from the glass as a man would have done. Then flinging herself upon the
uncomfortable sofa she said, "Mademoiselle, I am going to move away from my
house on Esplanade Street."
"Ah!" ejaculated the
musician, neither surprised nor especially interested. Nothing ever seemed to
astonish her very much. She was endeavoring to adjust the bunch of violets which
had become loose from its fastening in her hair. Edna drew her down upon the
sofa, and taking a pin from her own hair, secured the shabby artificial flowers
in their accustomed place.
"Aren't you astonished?"
"Passably. Where are you
going? to New York? to Iberville? to your father in Mississippi? where ?"
"Just two steps away,"
laughed Edna, "in a little four-room house around the corner. It looks so cozy,
so inviting and restful, whenever I pass by; and it's for rent. I'm tired
looking after that big house. It never seemed like mine,
anyway - like home. It's too much trouble. I have to keep too many servants.
I am tired bothering with them."
"That is not your true
reason, ma belle. There is no use in telling me lies. I don't
know your reason, but you have not told me the truth." Edna did not protest or
endeavor to justify herself.
"The house, the money that
provides for it, are not mine. Isn't that enough reason?"
"They are your husband's,"
returned Mademoiselle, with a shrug and a malicious elevation of the eyebrows.
"Oh! I see there is no
deceiving you. Then let me tell you: It is a caprice. I have a little money of
my own from my mother's estate, which my father sends me by driblets. I won a
large sum this winter on the races, and I am beginning to sell my sketches.
Laidpore is more and more pleased with my work; he says it grows in force and
individuality. I cannot judge of that myself, but I feel that I have gained in
ease and confidence. However, as I said, I have good many through Laidpore. I
can live in the tiny house for little or
nothing, with one servant. Old Celestine, who works occasionally for me, says
she will come stay with me and do my work. I know I shall like it, like the
feeling of freedom and independence."
"What does your husband say?"
"I have not told him yet. I
only thought of it this morning. He will think I am demented, no doubt. Perhaps
you think so."
Mademoiselle shook her head
slowly. "Your reason is not yet clear to me," she said.
Neither was it quite clear to
Edna herself; but it unfolded itself as she sat for a while in silence. Instinct
had prompted her to put away her husband's bounty in casting off her allegiance.
She did not know how it would be when he returned. There would have to be an
understanding, an explanation. Conditions would some way adjust themselves, she
felt; but what ever came, she had resolved never again to belong to another than
herself.
"I shall give a grand dinner
before I leave the old house!" Edna exclaimed.
"You will have to come to it, Mademoiselle. I will give you everything that
you like to eat and to drink. We shall sing and laugh and be merry for once."
And she uttered a sigh that came from the very depths of her being.
If Mademoiselle happened to
have received a letter from Robert during the interval of Edna's visits, she
would give her the letter unsolicited. And she would seat herself at the piano
and play as her humor prompted her while the young woman read the letter.
The little stove was roaring;
it was red-hot, and the chocolate in the tin sizzled and sputtered. Edna went
forward and opened the stove door, and Mademoiselle rising, took a letter from
under the bust of Beethoven and handed it to Edna.
"Another! so soon!" she
exclaimed, eyes filled with delight. "Tell me, Mademoiselle does he know that I
see his letters?"
"Never in the world! He would
be angry and would never write to me again if he thought so. Does he write to
you? Never a line. Does he send you a message? Never a word. It is because he
loves you, poor fool, and is trying to forget you, since you are not free to
listen to him or to belong to him."
"Why do you show me his
letters, then?"
"Haven't you begged for them?
Can I refuse you anything ? Oh! you cannot deceive me," and Mademoiselle
approached her beloved instrument and began to play. Edna did not at once read
the letter. She sat holding it in her hand, while the music penetrated her whole
being like an effulgence, warming and brightening the dark places of her soul.
It prepared her for joy and exultation.
"Oh!" she exclaimed, letting
the letter fall to the floor. "Why did you not tell me?" She went and grasped
Mademoiselle's hands up from the keys. "Oh! unkind! malicious! Why did you not
tell me?"
"That he was coming back? No
great news, ma foi. I wonder he did not come long ago."
"But when, when?" cried Edna,
impatiently. "He does not say when."
"He says 'very soon.' You
know as much about it as I do; it is all in the letter."
"But why? Why is he coming?
Oh, if I thought - " and she snatched the letter from the floor and turned the
pages this way and that way, looking for the reason, which was left untold.
"If I were young and in love
with a man," said Mademoiselle, turning on the stool and pressing her wiry hands
between her knees as she looked down at Edna, who sat on the floor holding the
letter, "it seems to me he would have to be some grand esprit; a
man with lofty aims and ability to reach them; one who stood high enough to
attract the notice of his fellow-men. It seems to me if I were young and in love
I should never deem a man of ordinary caliber worthy of my devotion."
"Now it is you who are
telling lies and seeking to deceive me, Mademoiselle; or else you have never
been in love, and know nothing about it. Why," went on Edna,
clasping her knees and looking up into Mademoiselle's twisted face, "do you
suppose a woman knows why she loves? Does she select? Does she say to herself:
'Go to! Here is a distinguished statesman with presidential possibilities; I
shall proceed to fall in love with him.' Or, 'I shall set my heart upon this
musician, whose fame is on every tongue?' Or, 'This financier, who controls the
world's money markets?' "
"You are purposely
misunderstanding me, ma reine. Are you in love with Robert?"
"Yes," said Edna. It was the
first time she had admitted it, and a glow overspread her face, blotching it
with red spots.
"Why?" asked her companion.
"Why do you love him when you ought not to?"
Edna, with a motion or two,
dragged herself on her knees before Mademoiselle Reisz, who took the glowing
face between her two hands.
"Why? Because his hair is
brown and grows away from his temples; because he opens and shuts his eyes, and
his nose is a
little out of drawing; because he has two lips and a square chin, and a
little finger which he can't straighten from having played baseball too
energetically in his youth. Because - "
"Because you do, in short,"
laughed Mademoiselle. "What will you do when he comes back?" she asked.
"Do? Nothing, except feel
glad and happy to be alive."
She was already glad and
happy to be alive at the mere thought of his return. The murky, lowering sky,
which had depressed her a few hours before, seemed bracing and invigorating as
she splashed through the streets on her way home.
She stopped at a
confectioner's and ordered a huge box of bonbons for the children in Iberville.
She slipped a card in the box, on which she scribbled a tender message and sent
an abundance of kisses.
Before dinner in the evening
Edna wrote a charming letter to her husband, telling him of her intention to
move for a while into the little house around the block, and
to give a farewell dinner before leaving, regretting that he was not there to
share it, to help her out with the menu and assist her in entertaining the
guests. Her letter was brilliant and brimming with cheerfulness.