Edna
Pontellier could not have told why, wishing to go to the beach with Robert, she
should in the first place have declined, and in the second place have followed
in obedience to one of the two contradictory impulses which impelled her.
A certain light was beginning
to dawn dimly within her, - the light which, showing the way, forbids it.
At that early period it
served but to bewilder her. It moved her to dreams, to thoughtfulness, to the
shadowy anguish which had overcome her the midnight when she had abandoned
herself to tears.
In short, Mrs. Pontellier was
beginning to realize her position in the universe as a human being, and to
recognize her relations as an individual to the world within and about her. This
may seem like a ponderous weight of wisdom to descend upon the soul of a young
woman of twenty-eight -
perhaps more wisdom than the Holy Ghost is usually pleased to vouchsafe to
any woman.
But the beginning of things,
of a world especially, is necessarily vague, tangled, chaotic, and exceedingly
disturbing. How few of us ever emerge from such beginning! How many souls perish
in its tumult!
The voice of the sea is
seductive; never ceasing, whispering, clamoring, murmuring, inviting the soul to
wander for a spell in abysses of solitude; to lose itself in mazes of inward
contemplation.
The voice of the sea speaks
to the soul. The touch of the sea is sensuous, enfolding the body in its soft,
close embrace.