CHAPTER I
For hours she had lain in a kind of gentle torpor, not unlike that sweet
lassitude which masters one in the hush of a midsummer noon, when the
heat seems to have silenced the very birds and insects, and, lying sunk
in the tasselled meadow-grasses, one looks up through a level roofing of
maple-leaves at the vast shadowless, and unsuggestive blue. Now and
then, at ever-lengthening intervals, a flash of pain darted through her,
like the ripple of sheet-lightning across such a midsummer sky; but it
was too transitory to shake her stupor, that calm, delicious, bottomless
stupor into which she felt herself sinking more and more deeply, without
a disturbing impulse of resistance, an effort of reattachment to the
vanishing edges of consciousness.
The resistance, the effort, had known their hour of violence; but
now they were at an end. Through her mind, long harried by grotesque
visions, fragmentary images of the life that she was leaving, tormenting
lines of verse, obstinate presentments of pictures once beheld,
indistinct impressions of rivers, towers, and cupolas, gathered in the
length of journeys half forgotten-through her mind there now only moved
a few primal sensations of colorless well-being; a vague satisfaction in
the thought that she had swallowed her noxious last draught of medicine
. . . and that she should never again hear the creaking of her husband's
boots -- those horrible boots -- and that no one would come to bother
her about the next day's dinner . . . or the butcher's book. . . .
At last even these dim sensations spent themselves in the
thickening obscurity which enveloped her; a dusk now filled with pale
geometric roses, circling softly, interminably before her, now darkened
to a uniform blue-blackness, the hue of a summer night without stars.
And into this darkness she felt herself sinking, sinking, with the
gentle sense of security of one upheld from beneath. Like a tepid tide
it rose around her, gliding ever higher and higher, folding in its
velvety embrace her relaxed and tired body, now submerging her breast
and shoulders, now creeping gradually, with soft inexorableness, over
her throat to her chin, to her ears, to her mouth. . . . Ah, now it was
rising too high; the impulse to struggle was renewed;. . . her mouth was
full;. . . she was choking. . . . Help!
"It is all over," said the nurse, drawing down the eyelids with
official composure.
The clock struck three. They remembered it afterward. Someone
opened the window and let in a blast of that strange, neutral air which
walks the earth between darkness and dawn; someone else led the husband
into another room. He walked vaguely, like a blind man, on his creaking
boots.